Stop Walking Over My Grave

I'm laying on a bed that isn't mine, watching a TV show I already watched a few hours ago.

I am feeling the effects of week 2 of going off the anti depressant Cymbalta. The first week consisted of dropping the dose in half and taking one every day. Now I have moved onto one tablet every second day. Mentally I think I am doing okay. I have been a bit down and suffering from some anxiety. It's the physical effects that I don't like.

In the first week I noticed the feeling of a shiver out of no where. The kind where you say 'someone just walked over my grave.' I get them a few times a day. Now I also have the thing I can't explain. My whole body will feel weird. I always refer to it as an inner swoosh. Whatever that even means. But I absolutely hate it.

I also don't feel like doing much. Although I have started walking. Unfortunatly I have gained quite a bit of weight and I have been told to get a check up with the doctor to make sure my thyroid is okay. I really don't eat that much food to of gained what I have in a few weeks. I'm trying not to be too upset about it and I need to stop under eating and I need to start eating better foods.

1am and I am still wide awake.

Of course I still have trouble getting to sleep...