Fading Face

Sometimes I will stare at my face in the mirror until the edges start to fade to black. I try to avoid mirrors because of how badly I criticize my appearance. Most of the time I look at myself and think that I don't look normal, that somehow I seem to look not even human or devoid of gender. I often find myself comparing everything about my appearance to other people I see and think that they are so much better in every way.

My negativity about myself is a huge problem. I believe that because I lack attractiveness I need to make up for it with my personality except I can't even do that because of my social anxiety. So in the end I just believe I am a complete failure.

This is a habit I wish I could break.