Future Anxiety

Drama, drama, drama.

I have encountered my first love square and boy does it suck. The past few days have managed to give me back anxiety that was long gone. I'm taking a break from one of my friends for a little while to try and let things die down a bit. So it looks like it's going to be a little quiet on the 'hanging out with friends' front. In other news it will be my sisters birthday this weekend and she is having a party with too many friends drinking too much alcohol and I will be attending and staying completely sober. Being the girl that I am I am already thinking about what I should wear, considering apart from my parents I will be the oldest person there. JOY!

I have been reading about the withdrawl symptoms of the anti depressant I am taking. I'm rather scared about going off them. I've read it's a hundred times worse than starting the drug and starting this drug was pretty damn bad. Times like this I wish I had more friends and have sleep overs like a kid every night of the week so I'm not alone in the process.

I also haven't been able to sleep again. I'm really starting to consider sleeping pills but I already stick enough poisons in my body with all my medication. This year is going to be a hard one.

I'm already starting to freak the fuck out....