Adult Child

I'm 26 years old and I live with my parents.

This morning my phone woke me up. I sat up and picked up my mobile phone and answered it. It was my Mum and she sounded rather annoyed that at 8:15am I was still sleeping. There was a time when I would be up before 8:30am. That was before I started taking this medication. I have told my parents this already, but they don't believe me. They think I'm just being lazy staying up all night playing video games which isn't even true.

I don't sleep well at night and it isn't because I play video games. Ever since I started taking this anti depressant I haven't been able to sleep well. I go to bed at a decent time, but spend most of the hours in my bed tossing and turning or waking up from bad dreams in the middle of the night. Nothing I do helps me sleep, not even exercise. So it makes me really angry when my parents accuse me of playing too many video games and being in a front of a computer for too long.

During the day I rarely even touch my Xbox unless someone comes over or I get really bored. I will watch movies or play Uno on my Xbox if I am home alone at night because my parents use both TV's in the evening and so I enter my bedroom so I have something to do. I have in the past played video games all day but I have seriously not done that in a very long time. Especially since I also have trouble concentrating on anything for an extended period of time. I can't even read anymore. Which I find very upsetting because I love reading.

I just get cranky because I feel like no one listens to me or believes I have anything wrong with me. Living at home always makes me feel like a child again and I try so hard not to let anything bother me. I already feel useless having no job, no money and hardley any life. I don't need anything else on top of that.