Sun Shower

Coffee with my ex was a good idea.

Getting in his car again for the first time in over a month made me feel weird, maybe because of all the years being in that car having him drive me somewhere. We went to Starbucks and got caramel frappachinos. We spoke about things we have been up to and our new relationships. I felt no anxiety or any need to cry like I have done the last few times I saw him. It was really good to see him again.

I was really worried that being friends with an ex wouldn't work. But I think we might be a part of that small group of people that can make a friendship work. I think this is because we both agree that we were always better at being friends.

I can now say, that when I think about the relationship that we had, I feel my most favorite of all emotions. Happy sad. I have no regrets about my relationship with my ex. I'm glad that I had the opportunity to know someone as well as I did and to have someone know me. I know we had some good times and we had some bad times. But maybe all of that had to happen. There will be a lot of things I will miss, that I will never experience again with him. The songs he used to make up for me, our afternoon naps together, his hugs, his little dances. =)

We went through so much together and it's sad that in the end we just couldn't keep going. But it's happy that we will still have each other in our lives.

I'm so happy I get to have you in my life and that you got to be my happy sad.
I love you. =)