I'm thinking I should ban myself from writing blog entries when I'm in a depressive state. I'm not saying anything I have written is in any way false, but I know certain people read my blog and I like pretending that I am 100% okay.
Today I am feeling a lot better than I did last night. Although, I managed to fall asleep after just waking up while watching the first Star Trek movie. It's now almost 2pm and my ex who is suppose to be showing up to pick up some DVD's of his still hasn't arrived. I'm wondering if he has forgotten.
I unfortunatly weighed myself this morning and discovered a weight gain of 2kgs. 2 kgs I had lost while going to the gym. I'm so mad at myself for not exercising lately. I blame the weather. It's so hot I just can't be bothered. Tomorrow morning I should start treadmilling. I'm just unhappy with my thighs and their citrus peel appearance that is gradually getting worse and making me feel incredibly unattractive. Plus my stomach could do with looking less pregnant. I shouldn't care because I've been told I look good anyway, but I can't help it.
I'm starting to revert back to constantly thinking I shouldn't eat. That is very bad, bad, bad!
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