Dancing Butterflies

I have typed a beginning and deleted it so many times it isn't funny. Maybe because this isn't a sad sap story I'm finding it really hard to write about....among other things.

Yesterday I spent time with a new friend. There wasn't much talking involved but I had a really nice time. I'm sort of rather excited about this whole thing. It's all new and I haven't had new for a long time. Something he said last night made me realise the same thing. I haven't had a friend like this before or anything like this before and I don't want to ruin it. I like things the way they are right now and I want to make the most of it.

I smile whenever I think about the times we've hung out together so far. Admitting things like this makes me feel kind of silly. Like I'm in high school all over again with those stupid high school crushes every girl has had. But he makes me feel happy and I really like spending time with him. I just really wish I could quit being so shy all the time. I got scared at first and I guess I still am because I really didn't expect to like someone again and didn't really want to I suppose but you really can't control things like this.

=) I'm such a girly girl right now.

We had lunch at the river and sat there for hours. It was peaceful and even though not much conversation happened I had a really good time. I don't think either of us wanted to leave but since we had something else planned to do that day during business hours we kinda had to. Since he has lent me his lap top he purchased a longer cable for me so I could use the lap top in my bedroom. But it's so long I can use it pretty much everywhere in the house now. Not that I need to use the lap top in every single room. But who knows when you might need to. =D

I'm seeing him again on Monday I believe and I must admit I am looking forward to it even though I will be a shy and silent girl who giggles a lot.