Sleeping Beast

While my friend is sleeping silently on my bed I decided to pop out another entry.

I have been thinking about what I have and haven't been doing since the break up. I've done less of what I wanted to get done. That included getting my driving license, getting a new job, learning public transport and being less depressed. The only thing I have done is become somewhat more social by hanging out with friends, well at the time it was one friend and now it's bumped up to 2 and will soon be 3 at least for a short period of time. I guess since it's been just over a month and I have social anxiety, I guess that is a massive improvent, I just wish things would move along faster, but maybe taking things slowly is the better way to go.

Living with your parents makes things harder though because they always want everything done now. Well, at least mine do. I guess I just want some time to hang out with people which is something I haven't done by myself for a very long time, maybe even a year or so. Since right now what I need is to start new friendships I'm kind of putting this first, even though a job to earn money is probably more important.

Today was spent by the beach eating noodles with 2 new friends. I was quiet to begin with but slowly started to talk as the day went on. I never had a conversation, but putting in an input of something is better than nothing. One of these friends has lent me his lap top for I don't know how long to play some games. One is Left For Dead 2. I don't think I'll start playing that tonight, I don't think I have the brain function for video games tonight after 2 nights of completely broken sleep.

I feel so worn out. It's the kind of tired where you just can't sleep. I was tossing and turning all night last night and got up feeling worse for wear.

I guess I better check on the sleeping boy I have in my room.